The Grown Up To-Do List: An Alternative Beginning

The Grown Up To-Do List: An Alternative Beginning

A lot can change during the editing process of a book and, in the case of The Grown Up To-Do List, the whole opening chapters were cut and rewrote, changing the way Cleo is reacquainted with her school crush, Paul. I understood why this had to happen but I was a little bit gutted because I loved these scenes, especially security guard Noel, who is scrapped completely. So I thought I'd share the chapters as an alternative beginning. Hope you enjoy!


***NOTE***
This is an extract from the un-edited version of The Grown Up To-Do List so there may be errors. I'd be surprised if there aren't any, to be honest. Plus, there are changes to the characters that appear in the finished copy.



The Grown Up To-Do List


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Today’s must do to-do list:

 

Buy Gran’s birthday present (Slippers? Perfume? Gin? Ask Mum!)

Find ‘something suitable’ to wear tonight (Mum insists)

Help Mum with party prep

Don’t be late for work (again)


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One 

I’m minding my own business, humming quietly along with the opening of Billy Ocean’s ‘Red Light Spells Danger’ and preparing for a major mental bop when it really gets going when it happens. Don’t judge me; the song’s playing over the department store’s sound system and I can’t help myself, it’s that kind of tune, and though it predates me by about twenty years, I know the song well due to my boss’ love of 70s music. With hindsight, I suppose you could see the song as a notice of impending doom, but I had no idea what was coming. Perhaps the warning should have been less subtle. Maybe an actual red light flashing above my head? Because one minute I’m browsing the shelves in search of Gran’s favourite perfume and the next I’m flying sideways into a display rack of costume jewellery. My life flashes before my eyes as I stumble into the rack of gaudy, sparkly adornments (my life, it turns out, isn’t very interesting) but although the display rack lurches, I somehow manage to stay on my feet. Unfortunately, the momentum of stopping myself falling forwards is too great and I tumble backwards, landing with a thud on my arse a split second before the display rack drops onto me like a felled tree, spilling diamante-encrusted bracelets like autumn leaves.

‘Oh my God.’ There’s a woman crouching beside me, her face so close to mine that I can smell the Caramel Cortado from the Costa on the lower level of the shopping centre on her breath (I may have a slight coffee addiction, but now isn’t the time to go into that). ‘Are you okay?’

My tailbone feels as though it’s on fire and I’m winded from the impact of the little shit who rugby tackled me into the display rack, but I do the very British thing and say I’m fine, even as I’m wrestling the display rack from my wounded body and trying not to cry.

‘I’m so sorry.’ The coffee-breathed woman helps me to my feet before wrenching the display rack into an upright position. ‘I made the mistake of letting the boys have a hot chocolate and a chocolate muffin just to shut them up for five minutes and now they’re hyper.’ She grimaces at me and I grimace back. My arse really, really hurts. ‘Elijah! Sebastian! Get back here and apologise to this poor girl right now.’

‘It’s okay. Really.’ I wince as I bend down to retrieve my shopping bag, mentally adding another item to today’s to-do list: never ever have kids, no matter how tempting and angelic they look in ads for baby food and washing detergent.

‘Are you sure?’ The woman looks up and down the shop’s perfume section, a frown lining her face. There’s no sign of Elijah and Sebastian, which is no bad thing in my opinion.

‘I’m sure.’ I’d sound more convincing if I wasn’t gasping for breath and clutching my side, but it can’t be helped and the woman isn’t really listening anyway. She’s too preoccupied searching for her delinquents and she dashes away as soon as I start to hobble towards the exit. I need to somehow rest without sitting down on my throbbing tailbone, and maybe have a little weep.

‘Excuse me, miss.’ There’s a hand on my shoulder as I step out onto the shopping centre’s concourse, big and meaty and its grip painfully tight.

‘Gerroff.’ I don’t mean to sound rude, particularly as the hand’s owner was polite while addressing me, but my poor battered body can’t take any more abuse. I try to wriggle free, but the fingers dig deeper into my flesh.

‘You need to come back inside with me.’

I twist (painfully. My side feels as though I’ve been whacked by a battering ram) and see the black and white uniform of the shop’s security. He starts to haul me back towards the department store but I dig my heels in. I want to go home and feel very sorry for myself, not return to the scene of the crime.

‘It’s okay. I’m okay. I just want to go home.’

‘You’re not going anywhere, love.’ The security guard prods me in the back so hard I have no choice but to scuttle forward. ‘Not until we’ve sorted this out.’

‘There’s really nothing to sort out.’ I attempt to sidestep him, but he’s quite beast-like – tall and wide and mean-looking – and he grabs me by the arm, his fingers locking tight. ‘I don’t want to complain or anything. I’m not going to sue. It was an accident. No harm done.’ Though try telling that to my tailbone and ribs. ‘So, like I said, I just want to go home.’

‘And like I said, you’re not going anywhere until we’ve sorted this out.’ I try to wriggle free, but he drags me back into the shop and snatches my shopping bag from my fingers. It’s as he’s rifling through the bag that I clock the insistent beeping of the store’s alarm system. He isn’t concerned about the accident at all! He thinks I’m a thief.

Heat creeps up from chest, spreading up my throat and turning my cheeks pink. If I wasn’t mute with shock, I’d give this fella a piece of my mind. A thief! Me? I’ve never nicked anything in my life, and I’m not going to start now, at the age of twenty-seven. My life may not be very interesting (as evidenced by the piss poor life-flashing-before-my-eyes a few minutes ago) but there are better ways to mix it up. Sky-diving. Travelling the world. Entering into the world of dating again. Definitely not shoplifting.

‘There’s been some kind of mix up.’ I finally find my voice. Or a squeaky version of it. I’m trying to ignore the stares as people pause their shopping to gawp at me. The coffee-breathed woman slows her pace as she leaves the shop with her two brats, almost coming to a standstill as she rubber-necks at the drama.

‘A mix up, eh?’ The security guard smirks at me as he slowly pulls his hand out of my shopping bag. His eyebrows inch up his forehead before he produces the most hideous necklace known to man from my bag. ‘I think you’d better come to the office with me.’

 

The necklace is a garish shade of gold with a row of plastic ‘sapphires’ dotted along the chunky chain and a large golden beetle with a stabby-looking mandible at its centre. It still has its cardboard label and the security device that caused this spectacle attached. It is the ugliest piece of jewellery I’ve ever seen. Perhaps the ugliest object I’ve ever seen.

‘Why the hell would I pickpocket that monstrosity?’ The necklace is sitting on the desk between me and the shop’s manager while Noel, the heavy-handed security guard who dragged me in here, stands in front of the closed door. Noel’s bagged the necklace up (to preserve the evidence, he’d said as he’d shaken the crumbs from his sandwich out of the clear plastic bag).

‘That isn’t for us to decide, young lady.’ The manager folds her arms across her chest and arches an eyebrow at me. ‘Young lady’ indeed. I’m twenty-seven, not a pre-teen who’s been caught shovelling sweets in her pockets at the corner shop. And the manager can’t be more than thirty-five herself, even if her snooty, I’m-so-much-better-than-you expression ages her terribly.

‘It’s for the police, innit.’ Noel mirrors the manager’s action, folding his arms across his wide chest. ‘They’ll be here any minute now.’

They’ve called the police. Did it right in front of me as I inched myself down on the plastic chair, gritting my teeth against the pain of putting pressure on my tailbone. They’ve had a ‘spate of thefts’ over the past few weeks and they’re ‘determined to stamp it out’. Starting with me, even though I haven’t nicked anything.

‘You’re wasting their time.’ I fold my arms across my chest, ignoring the stab of pain in my side. ‘I’m not a thief, and even I was, I wouldn’t take that thing if you paid me.’ I glare at the offending object. It really is nasty. ‘There’s been a mix up. It probably fell into my bag when…’

Noel hoots out a laugh, rising up onto his tiptoes with mirth. ‘Fell into your bag? Did you hear that, Yvette? Fell into her bag? And how did it manage that, love? Grow a pair of legs and jump off the rack, did it?’

‘No.’ I hold in a sigh. I also hold in telling Noel that he’s a pillock. ‘The rack fell over. It fell on top of me.’

‘You what?’ Noel snorts. ‘Don’t talk rubbish, love.’

‘Will you stop calling me love?’ I pierce Noel with my best don’t-mess-with-me glare before turning to the manager. ‘Do you encourage this kind of misogyny in all your staff or just this buffoon?’

‘Oi.’ Noel throws back his shoulders so he’s standing taller. ‘Who are you calling a buffoon?’

‘Noel, please.’ The manager – Yvette – holds up a hand. ‘Go back out onto the shop floor. I’ll call you back in if you’re needed.’

‘But I’m the prime witness.’ Noel points at the necklace in the sandwich bag. ‘She’d have had that away if I hadn’t stopped her.’

‘Exactly.’ Yvette smiles up at Noel, flashing a row of overbright white teeth. ‘She may have accomplices out there, clearing the stock while we’re distracted in here. I need your eyes out there.’

For Pete’s sake. Prime witness. Accomplices. They’re treating this like an episode of Midsomer Murder rather than the mix up it clearly is.

‘Do you have CCTV?’

Noel has lumbered from the office, eager to get back to his station so he can foil more would-be thieves, so it’s just me and Yvette now. Two reasonable adults, I hope.

‘Of course.’ Yvette blinks at me as though I’m stupid.

‘Then why don’t you check it? You’ll see the accident with the jewellery stand. You won’t see me pocketing that.’ I give the necklace a cursory glance. ‘And then you can call the police off so they can fight actual crime.’

‘You’d like that, wouldn’t you?’ Yvette leans across the desk towards me, the palms of her hands pressed down either side of the sandwich bag as she practically snarls at me. Jeez, she’s as bad as Noel. I’m surprised she isn’t recording this exchange (‘For the tape, I’m eye-balling the accused’).

‘To be proved innocent and go home?’ I lean across the desk too. We’re almost nose-to-nose. ‘Yes, I’d like that very much.’

‘You’d like me to call off the police so you can get away with it. Well, it isn’t happening.’ She leans back in her chair again, her arms folding, eyebrow raising. ‘I’ve had it with you lot. Thinking you can come into my shop and clear the place.’ She slaps the desk with the palm of her hand, and the sudden noise makes me jump, jarring my throbbing tailbone. ‘I’m not having it any more. I’m not having head office thinking I can’t run this shop. I’m not losing my job just so you can fund your drug habit. I’m saying enough. The police will come and I will do everything in my power to have you prosecuted.’

Prosecuted? Drug habit? She really is as gung-ho as Noel. Any minute now she’s going to take my prints and read me my rights.

‘Please, just have a look at the CCTV.’ I lean back in my chair, wincing as the pressure increases on my tailbone. I open my mouth to argue my case a bit more, but the office door swings opens and Noel sticks his head into the room.

‘Plod’s here. Shall I send him in?’

‘Yes please.’ Yvette smiles, slow and toothy and panto villain-like. ‘Justice is about to prevail.’



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My Top Five All-Time Crushes:

1. Justin Timberlake

2. Billie Joe Armstrong

3. Usher

4. Harry Styles

5. Paul ‘Franko’ Franks

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Two 

The office feels extremely small and cluttered all of a sudden. The walls seem to have crept in closer, and the stacks of lever arch files and piles of paper appear to be towering even more precariously on every surface, and who the hell cut off the oxygen supply because I’m puffing away here but no air seems to be going in. My chest aches and it has nothing to do with the possibly cracked ribs. I know I didn’t steal that gaudy bagged-up necklace (at least, not intentionally) but I’m filled with guilt as the door opens fully and I see the shiny shoes of the policeman step onto the miniscule bit of available carpet. My palms are sweating so profusely, I fear I’m about to fill the tiny room and drown us all. Luckily, with all the moisture hightailing it to my palms, my mouth has been left desert-dry, rendering me unable to speak because I think I’d confess right now if I could, just to get out of this suffocating room.

I need to add another item to today’s to-do list when I get out of here: do not, under any circumstances, confess to a crime you did not commit.

‘Cleo?’ The policeman has squeezed into the room, side-stepping into the narrow gap between the desk and the window, and is looking down at me with a mixture of surprise and delight. ‘Cleo Parker?’

‘That’s her.’ Noel has followed the policeman into the room, cramming himself so close to the fella it should be classed as a sexual encounter. ‘She’s the culprit. Caught her red-handed, I did. Banged. To. Rights.’

‘It is still Parker, isn’t it?’ The policeman has totally blanked Noel, whose face has crumpled in disbelief. No congratulations? No pat on the back? Not even a flicker of acknowledgement of his heroic act? ‘You never know these days. Everybody’s getting married. Courtney Marsh is Courtney Clarke now, and Shelby Austin is Shelby…’ He shakes his head. ‘I’ve forgotten now, but it isn’t Austin. Even Spencer Harvey got married, though obviously he didn’t change his name.’ He laughs, his whole face lighting up the way it used to do. Bright white teeth, blue eyes sparkling. Such beautiful blue eyes…

‘Franko?’ My chest aches, but in a good way this time. The way it used to ache when I spotted my crush in the school corridor or loitering around the playground.

‘It’s PC Paul Franks now.’ He attempts to spread his arms wide, to showcase the uniform, but Noel is in the way and ends up with an elbow in the gut.

‘What’s going on here?’ Yvette looks from the policeman to me and back again, frown lines deepening on her forehead. ‘Do you two know each other?’

‘We went to school together.’ Franko – PC Paul Franks – perches on the desk, facing me so his back’s blocking my view of Yvette. ‘We haven’t seen each other for years. How long has it been? A decade?’

‘Nine years.’ The last time I saw Franko was the night before I left our little seaside town to travel across the world. I wasn’t the only one leaving – Sienna had the seat booked next to mine on the flight, and Peter and Courtney were leaving for university in a couple of days, so we’d organised a final boozy get-together in the Red Lion. It had been an amazing night, where we spilled out onto the beach at kicking out time and splashed in the shallows without taking our shoes and socks off. Franko walked me home afterwards, our soggy shoes slapping the pavement, and he kissed me on the doorstep, finally, after my three-year crush. I left the next day and I haven’t seen him since, until now, when he’s possibly going to arrest me for nicking an ugly beetle necklace.

‘Wow, nine years. Only feels like yesterday.’ Franko shakes his head and laughs wistfully. ‘Have you kept in touch with the others? I think I’m friends with most of us on Facebook. I haven’t seen you on there, though.’

‘I’m not on Facebook.’

Franko laughs. ‘Everyone’s on Facebook. Even my mum.’

‘Not me.’ Not since my ex stalked me across my social media until I deleted the lot, but Franko doesn’t need to know about my disastrous love life. And neither do Noel and Yvette, come to think of it.

‘You always were different. Do you remember when you had those multicoloured dreads? They were pretty cool.’

I’d had the rainbow dreads when we’d kissed on my doorstep. He’d played with an orange dreadlock, twisting it between his finger and thumb while he told me how unique I was, his face moving closer to mine until we were kissing. I wonder if he remembers that?

‘Excuse me. This reunion is all very nice and heart-warming, but we have this to deal with.’ Yvette snatches the sandwich bag from the desk and holds it in the air. I’m mortified that not only is Franko here to question (and possibly arrest) me about the alleged shoplifting, but he’ll think I’ve tried to nab the monstrosity dangling in the bag from Yvette’s fingers.

‘You gonna nick her or what?’ Noel looks me up and down, lip curled as though he’s just detected a whiff of dog shit in the air.

‘Nobody’s getting nicked.’ Franko winks at me. ‘Not yet.’ He drags a notebook from his jacket pocket and flicks it open. ‘Shall we start from the beginning?’

‘If we start with the CCTV, we’ll get this sorted a lot quicker.’ I lean over, so I can see past Franko and look across the desk at Yvette, whose face is twisted up and lined like an old prune. I think she was expecting me to be handcuffed and in the back of a cop car by now.

‘I take it you have CCTV in place?’ Franko twists so he’s facing Yvette. Her face smooths out as she beams back at him.

‘Of course. Noel, would you like to lead the way?’

The security guard thrusts his shoulders back, his chin tilted in the air. ‘Of course, ma’am. Follow me, officer.’

What a kiss-arse. Noel seems to be under the impression that he’s been tasked with an important job, when in reality, he has to lead the way because he’s blocking the doorway of the cramped office. Nobody can vacate until Noel does.

‘I didn’t know you were back up north.’ Franko helps me to clamber over the chair, which is wedged in between the wall and desk. It’s undignified and my tailbone feels as though it’s being poked with a red-hot poker, but at least I get to hold onto Franko’s arm. My teenage self would be hyperventilating at his close proximity. ‘Didn’t you move down south somewhere?’

Franko steadies me as I make my final hop over the chair. ‘Ashford. In Kent. Moved in with my dad for a bit until I got my own place. Moved back this way a couple of years ago. My mum’s still in Clifton. Still on Woodland Road, actually.’ Franko shakes his head. ‘I don’t know how people can stay in that crappy little town their whole lives. Not like us, eh? Got out of that dump as soon as we could.’

‘Yeah.’ I turn away from Franko and follow Noel along the narrow corridor.

‘Did you and Sienna make it around the world like you always said you would?’

‘Sienna did. She met a guy in New Zealand and married him. They’ve got kids and everything.’ Two of them, the last I heard, but that was couple of years ago, before the social media cull. How did my best friend become nothing but a Facebook acquaintance?

‘Two kids? Wow. I can’t imagine Sienna as a mum. She was always such a free spirit. Like you.’

‘Yeah.’ I smile weakly. I’m such a free spirit, I boomeranged back to our sedate home town after a matter of weeks and failed to escape again. Didn’t even try to.

‘Shelby had a baby a few months ago. Peter’s the godfather. Can you believe it? Peter, who used to get shitfaced on weed every night and drew cock and balls on every surface he came across is a godfather. Mind you, he’s respectable now. He’s a doctor.’ Franko snorts. ‘Peter, a doctor. Mad.’ He shakes his head. ‘His wife’s a doctor as well. Nancy. They’re having a baby in a few months. They’re down in Buckinghamshire. Everyone seems to have migrated south, apart from Demi. She’s in Edinburgh. She has her own interior design company and she was on telly last year, on that home makeover show on the BBC.’ The corridor has opened up into a large storage space packed with boxes and rails of clothes. I hope Franko doesn’t ask me any questions about this Demi person, because I have no idea who he’s talking about. ‘What brings you back this way?’

We’re currently in Preston, a twenty-minute train ride from the seaside town where we grew up and where I still live. It’s where I do my shopping because you can’t escape fish and chip shops in Clifton-on-Sea but finding a Primark or Topshop is impossible.

‘I had to move back home. My grandad had a stroke.’

‘I’m sorry.’ Franko places a hand on my shoulder and my stomach flips, just as it would have done a decade ago. ‘Is he okay?’

‘He made a pretty good recovery, but he had another stroke a couple of years ago. A big one and… well, you know.’ I look down at my shoes as they move towards the cluster of monitors squeezed onto a desk in the far right corner of the room. ‘I stayed behind, to help look after my gran. Luckily, I was able to transfer to the Preston office.’

What am I talking about? I work in a fish and chip shop in Clifton-on-Sea. There is no office, unless you count the little filing cabinet in the back room where Russell and Jed keep the accounts. There certainly isn’t a Preston office to transfer to. I did not add ‘lie through your teeth’ on today’s to-do list, but it looks as though I’m doing it anyway.

‘What publication do you work for?’ I turn and frown at Franko. Publication? ‘Didn’t you want to be a journalist?’

‘I did.’ But not a boring, serious journalist. I wanted to report on celebrities and get my mitts on all the juicy goss before anybody else. ‘But I changed my mind.’ This isn’t technically a lie. After returning to Clifton-on-Sea to help look after my grandad, I took on a temporary job at the fish and chip shop. Nine years later, I’m still there. In fact, I’m assistant manager.

‘What is it you do?’ We’ve reached the corner of the large storage space, where the monitors are set up, and I use it as a distraction from Franko’s question and turn to Noel instead.

‘You need to load up the footage from the perfume section. That’s where the necklace must have come from, when the display rack fell on top of me.’

‘A display rack fell on top of you?’ Franko’s hand is on my arm. My stomach dances again. ‘Are you okay?’

Finally, some sympathy over my ordeal instead of accusations!

‘Let’s go back to when she entered the store, shall we?’ Yvette motions for Noel to sit down at the desk. ‘We’ll track her and find the moment she pockets the necklace, and then the little criminal can actually be dealt with instead of having a cosy catch up with the policeman.’


 

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The most embarrassing moments of my life so far:

The time the door jammed in the school’s loo, and instead of helping me to get out, Sienna gathered all our mates so they could piss themselves laughing at me

My first kiss: there were braces, too much slobber, and all our mates jeering from the sidelines

On the Ferris wheel on a particularly windy day. One of my dreads ended up tangled around the pole. Instead of helping me, Sienna laughed so hard she almost threw up. The ticket guy thought I was messing around and wouldn’t stop the ride. I went round three times before I managed to untangle myself – and the ticket guy made me pay for the extra ride

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Three 

Reliving the moment I was rugby-tackled by a hyped-up pre-teen on the screen is even worse than the actual event somehow. It’s painful, in a cringey, horrifying way, and my arse and ribs are still throbbing, plus there are three more witnesses, all wincing as I’m catapulted into the display rack. There’s a collective holding of breath as I lurch into the merchandise, my fingers grasping onto the metal stand, and it comes rushing out as the Cleo on screen manages to stay upright. But then she stumbles backwards, still holding onto the rack, and ends up on her back, straddled by the display unit.

‘Ouch.’ Noel glances at me out of the corner of his eye, his mouth pulled down at the corners. ‘That must have hurt.’

‘It did.’ My hand instinctively moves towards my tailbone, but I manage to stop myself before I rub my bum in public. ‘Still does.’

‘Do you need to get checked out?’ Franko’s hand is back on my arm. It’s almost worth the pain and humiliation for the contact with my old super-crush. Almost.

‘Nah. I’m made of tough stuff. Might not be able to sit down comfortably for a week but I’ll live.’

‘Do you want me to go and hunt that kid down and give him a caution?’ Franko grins at me and I smile goofily back at him. I can’t help it. This is nice (apart from the throbbing tailbone and aching ribs). It’s fate, surely. Two people brought back together after almost a decade after a freak, mortifying accident. This is the moment I’ve been waiting for. My life came to a standstill when I returned to Clifton-on-Sea before I’d even gained a suntan and I’ve been coasting ever since. But this could be the kickstart I’ve needed to get back on track. It’ll certainly be a tale to tell the grandkids.

‘Excuse me.’ Yvette taps the monitor, where screen Cleo is being helped to her feet by Coffee Breath. ‘This doesn’t prove she didn’t steal the necklace. For all we know, this was all a setup. A scam. She could be on it too.’ Yvette taps at the screen again, jabbing the image of Coffee Breath as she wrenches the display rack into an upright position.

‘Look! There!’ It’s me jabbing at the screen now. The floor is littered with objects that were dislodged when the display rack attacked me (I would have picked them up, but I was in agony) and there’s my shopping bag, right next to the carnage. Screen Cleo picks up the bag and hobbles away. ‘See? I didn’t nick anything. It was an accident beyond my control. You can’t arrest me for that.’ I look at Franko, my eyes widening. ‘Can you?’

Franko shakes his head. ‘Looks like a clear mishap to me.’

‘Are you kidding me?’ Yvette jabs the monitor so hard, I’m surprised it doesn’t topple over. ‘This proves nothing! We didn’t actually see how the necklace ended up in her bag.’

‘Come on, Yvette.’ Noel spreads his arms out before letting them fall and slap against his thighs. ‘The poor kid was knocked for six before a display unit fell on top of her. I’m surprised she isn’t suing us.’

‘She dragged that display unit on top of herself. We have it on film. We have witnesses.’

Yvette is starting to go a bit purple as she rants, but we’ve already started to walk away, led by Noel, who escorts us to the exit, apologising for the accusations and wasting our time.

‘Are you sure you’re okay?’ Franko places a hand on my arm again as we wander across the shopping centre’s concourse. Freedom tastes delicious, but not as delicious as the Caramel Cortado I’m going to treat myself to. ‘Do you need a lift anywhere? Home? Work?’ He looks me up and down, taking in my leggings, oversized hoodie and glittery Converse. ‘Maybe not work. A&E?’

‘I’m fine, really. And I don’t need a lift, thanks.’ I reach into the pocket at the front of my hoodie and pull out my keys, giving them a jingle before shoving them back inside. There are three sets of keys attached to the keyring I won on the sliding 2p machines at the arcade last summer, and not one of them is a car key. I don’t drive, though I’ve always intended to learn at some point. I applied for my provisional licence but haven’t got round to booking any lessons yet. ‘I’m off to the gym, but I’ve got time for a quick coffee first?’ I indicate the uber-casual clothes I’m wearing and hope my nose doesn’t start to grow. I have never stepped foot in a gym in my life. I don’t even have the pretence of an unused membership card tucked in my purse.

‘No coffee for me, thanks. I’m detoxing.’

I try not to gape at Franko, but it’s quite difficult to remain straight-faced. Detoxing? This is the boy who chain-smoked his way through his mid-teens, who sat his maths GCSE while hungover after Shelby’s sixteenth birthday party, and who spent his pocket money on weed. I think he even sniffed glue for a bit when we were fourteen.

‘And I should get going now.’ Franko pats the radio up by his shoulder. ‘But we should get together for a proper catch up. Are you free tonight?’

My heart is Riverdancing and my feet are itching join in the joyous jig. It takes great effort to stop them from flickering up and down on the gleaming concourse floor because Paul ‘Franko’ Franks has just asked me out on a date. At last. I have been waiting for this moment since I was fifteen and I can’t quite believe it’s happening.

Except.

Oh no.

I’m not free.

‘I can’t tonight.’ I pull a face that doesn’t even come close to displaying the utter annoyance I feel right now. ‘It’s my gran’s birthday. We’re having a party. Just a teeny one – close family and friends – otherwise I’d invite you. Sorry.’ I pull another face, but figure it probably doesn’t look very attractive and stop. ‘How about tomorrow night?’

‘I can’t. Sorry.’ This time it’s Franko pulling a face. It doesn’t look unattractive. I’m not sure he could appear unattractive, with his shaggy blond hair and blue eyes. He still looks like a surfer from a teen magazine poster, and I approve. ‘I won’t be here tomorrow. This is my last shift.’ He pats the radio again. ‘I’ve transferred to Bristol and I’m off in the morning.’

‘Oh.’ I somehow manage to push a smile through the devastation. ‘That sucks.’

Understatement! This was supposed to be it. The start of our new life together. First date, second date, fast-forward a bit to proposal, marriage, babies. Maybe babies. Probably not. I wonder how Franko feels about kids?

‘I’ll be back for Mum’s 50th though. Couldn’t miss that. She’d kill me. We’ll meet up then.’ Franko’s radio starts to make noise, and he backs away, raising his hand in farewell. ‘Get on Facebook and add me. And the others. I’ll message you about getting together.’

‘When’s your mum’s birthday?’ I call, but Franko’s already turned and is striding away.

 

Ten minutes later, I’m dumping my shopping bag on the backseat of Mum’s Fiesta. I ease myself onto my seat, trying not wince too much (but wincing a little bit, in the hope that Mum will ask me what’s wrong so she can heap sympathy onto me after my sorry tale).

‘Did you manage to find the right perfume?’

I’m trying to wriggle the seatbelt clasp into place one-handed, but stop to look at Mum. ‘Oops.’

‘What do you mean, oops?’ Mum tuts and grabs the seatbelt, clicking it into place for me.

‘I mean, I didn’t get round to getting Gran’s perfume.’ I shift in my seat, sucking in an audible breath even though the discomfort from my bashed tailbone has eased off significantly.

‘You were gone for over an hour.’ Mum glances down at the cardboard cup in my hand. ‘And I see you found the time to grab a coffee. What have you been doing all this time?’

‘I bought a dress, like you told me to.’ Apparently, ripped jeans and a flannel shirt aren’t ‘appropriate’ for a small family gathering. ‘And I was going to get the perfume – I was looking at them and everything…’

‘And then you got distracted?’ Mum sighs. ‘Oh, Cleo.’

‘Not distracted. Arrested.’

‘Arrested?’ Mum’s checking her mirrors, but her head snaps round to stare wide-eyed at me.

‘Well, no, not arrested exactly. But I was detained by a power-tripping store manager and her buffoon of a security guard.’ I feel a pang of guilt. Noel had been quite kind during the walk back down to the store, even if he did ruin it by suggesting we submit the footage to You’ve Been Framed and split the two hundred and fifty quid, 50/50. ‘And the police did come to question me.’

‘Question you about what? Oh, Cleo, what did you do?’

Nothing.’ I gape at Mum, outraged that she would immediately come to the conclusion that I was guilty. She doesn’t even know what the bogus crime was, yet I’ve been tried and convicted. ‘It was a miscarriage of justice.’ Mum looks at me intensely until I start to squirm. I take a sip of my coffee, but still she looks, saying nothing. ‘I was accused of shoplifting.’

‘Shoplifting?’

‘I didn’t do it. I didn’t steal anything. I wouldn’t. Especially not an ugly beetle necklace.’

Mum takes in a huge breath, holding it for a few seconds before releasing it. She checks her mirrors again before setting off. ‘Start from the beginning. Tell me everything, even if you think I won’t like it.’

She still thinks I’m guilty then.

Thanks, Mum. Thanks a bunch.


Find out more about the book:
The Grown Up To-Do List | Jennifer Joyce


Her friends are bossing life - is she being left behind?

25-year-old Cleo is happy enough. She likes her job in the fish and chip shop in the North West seaside town where she grew up. But her world has become very small - all her friends couldn’t wait to leave home and are off, apparently crushing life. They have shiny careers and creative side-hustles, while she is still living with her mum and dad.

But when she learns that her dream childhood boyfriend is coming back to town for a party in three months, she decides she needs to start adulting to win him.

But what does being a grown-up really mean? And can she become one in three months?



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